He smiles

Today E gave me a big proper smile and it made all the rest of the shit seem like nothing.  Nothing at all.  Suddenly everything is all worthwhile.  He desperately needs to give a huge winning smile to M.  

Tonight I went for a massage and I left E in a very grumbly mood with M.  When I came back M was devastated, E had screamed continuously.  His day had been pretty good although I am now petrified all the time that he is starving.  I phoned the breastfeeding clinic and I am going to have a chat with them tomorrow before the clinic on Monday.  Hopefully that will get us through the weekend.  

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